I have been humbled

God does interesting things with the lives of His children. When we become Christians we lay down our lives to follow Him. Sometimes, though, we forget that our lives are not our own. We forget that He loves us and because we don’t love Him the way we should we don’t trust Him like we should. Manytimes, that love relationship seems so distant that we don’t realize it was because of our own decisions that we don’t hear God beckoning us the way He used to.

I got to experience this and like I’ve always known, God needs to speak loudly to me. That He did, or allowed things in my life to happen that brought me back to Him. He humbled me by taking away the things I thought I needed to be happy: money, jobs, a camera, part of my self perception, and even a close friendship. I could have very easily kept turning away from God, but instead He chose to put me on a path that led me right back to Him. He showed me how I had kept Him at arms reach, and that I did not love Him like I should. I was humbled by my mistakes and asked my Lord for forgiveness. For a lot of things and mostly for not being a very good child to Him and forgetting all that He had done for me. I am still amazed for that way that God forgives His children and lets us walk with Him once again.

This time though, I don’t want to change just myself and my outward actions. I don’t want to do anything, except trust and love Him. I have learned and am reminded that God is the only one who can change us and He changes us from the inside out. The things I do in life I want to be because of Him and not of myself. I don’t want to refrain from something just because it appears “wordly.” Rather, I would not want to do “wordly” things because my love for my Savior, has my life focused on Him. Which, is not exactly easy unless Christ is a part of my daily walk.

So I have been humbled and things will continue to be different in my life, but not because of me. Instead it is because of Him. How amazing is it that God cares so much!