Tears

Small salty drops of emotion that sometimes squeeze out of our eyes. Other times they sit just inside our lids, serving their purpose with their presence alone.

Sometimes there are many, so many that they could be called streams. Occasionally they act as time wells that bubble up but never spill over.

Regardless, tears serve their purpose. They come from the heart as a direct line of communication. They can be expressing hurt, anger, fear, pain, or worry. Emotions that can no longer be concealed with layers of Maybeliene for make believe.

Occasionally they sneak up on us and expose our feeling gracefully. At times proof of sheer joy being experienced.

Yet we sometimes treat them like a faux paux. When did they become socially unacceptable? Why are we afraid to cry? How does having tears make you weak?

Written 5-18-08

For My Career I am Going to be a Matchmaker

I’ve always joked about wanting to be a matchmaker, but never did I deem it a possibility. Then I joked one Sunday afternoon about being one for my second life and my company said, “why don’t you just do it now?” That started a whole thought process. Then a bunch of questions started flooding my way.

*Do I know enough people? –Well I know some, and they know some. Plus I don’t have to match everybody all the time. Just make a few suggestions or introductions here and there.

*Do I want the responsibility? –I have a friend that refuses to even think about matchmaking because she doesn’t want to be responsible for the positives or negatives. I’m still processing through this thought.

*Are the people I know quality? – The reason why I ask this is because of that stupid line that people give when they aren’t interested but they say maybe one of my friends will be. This is right there along with the line, “Lets just be friends.” A sort of cop out that offers an agreement that may never be met. I couldn’t believe the words “ I might have to hook you up with one of my friends” came out of my mouth after this horrible date. I would never fix him up with one of my friends, because they deserve way better!

*Could I as a single woman pass on good quality guys to my friends and acquaintances? This was the hardest question of all. Why? Because humans are selfish by nature. And although not every good Christian guy I meet is my type, I want time to figure that out. Not just for me, but for him too. Which would mean, that unless I knew instantly, without a doubt that the guy sitting in front of me was not for me, he couldn’t be a someone I matched, for a while. As selfish and insightful as that might be.

*Whom would my services pertain to? –This refer to the whole missionary dating aspect. Me being a Christian, I know that I could never set up a Christian with a non-Christian. Then again I’m not sure how comfortable I would be setting up non-Christians.

I suppose my conclusion for now is, I might just have to save my potential matchmaking skills for later in life. When I have no longer a need to have prospects. It is also necessary to wait to fine tune the skills of the needs in a relationship.

So for right now, I will leave it up to God and EHarmony to put people together. Unless I get on of these random gut feeling. that hat so and so and this guy would be great together!