The Difficulty of Having People Who Care

It’s cute, but I love it! My family and friends always want the best for me. Whether it’s a career, friendship, health, wealth, or relationship; they seem to be at a constant concern for my life. I know they just want to see me happy and I appreciate that. They are my biggest fans and I am more than thankful for them being my cheerleaders.

Sometimes it’s hard though, because as much as I want something to happen, if it doesn’t happen I feel like they get let down too. Say a friendship of mine gets blown and we decide to part ways, they hurt for me too. When I was career searching last fall, there were too many times when I had to just let them know that again it didn’t work out. It even got to the point that I stopped talking to some of them for a couple weeks because it was hard enough being let down myself, then I had to let them know too. It was just easier to not let them know about the prospects, and then I was the only one who had to be concerned with the next step.

It is also nice to rejoice with them when I have successes. Especially when I got my current job, they were full of comments like, “we knew you could do it” and “I am so glad someone recognized your talent.” It is like twice the excitement! I know they will also be there cheering me on for the rest of my life’s successes.

I suppose the most difficult part of this, is the one that neither I nor they can control. There was only so much control I had over the next job I got and whether or not a friendship worked out. It seems though; I have the least amount of control in whether or not I am in a relationship. This is even harder sometimes because both my family and friends want me to be in one.

This difficulty is not because they are pressuring me for marriage or children. Rather it is because they think it is time to see me happily invested with someone else. Someone who will fill a part in my life, like their significant others do for them. Even my single friends want me to be with someone who is deserving of me. Problem is who? Sure I want it to work out, especially if my family, friends, and I are thinking of the same person. What if who we think and they think should be that person, doesn’t work out.

I know it will hurt for me, but it will hurt them a little too and that makes it harder for me. I can deal with my feelings and remain just friends, but I think it would be easier to do that if my family and friends hadn’t wanted it too. Maybe it makes me feel like a failure to them, but why should it? After all, I was only partially in control and I can never change what someone else feels.

In the end God’s Will, will be known and His hand is on everything. I thank Him for the people he has given me in my life. I guess what this proves to me is that in a relationship, my partner should be a fan and cheerleader of me too. If he’s not, then he’s not for me, because I certainly will be on his side of the court cheering him on. If he doesn’t want the best for me too, then we just cannot be.

As difficult as it might be at times, I will continue on with the biggest fans of my life, on my side. Someday they will get to cheer on a relationship success for me too. They will also get to cheer on many other successes and I will get to cheer them on as well. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I just wish the things that just don’t work out, were easier on me and them though.